The power within

Do you know that when... you're well-balanced, almost everything runs OK, you have a good friend around and then it happens. This one second that ruins it. You see someone you almost completely forgot about. One you fall in love with. But you dumbass didn't tell. You kept your mouth shut until it was too late. Until there was a boyfriend at her side.

You beat yourself up for not telling it.
Like every time you see her.

The only thing that did help was distance.
You didn't see her anymore. It got better. You hardly remembered her. You forgot.

But this second puts it all back. Your memories. Your feelings.

Your balance is gone. You can hardly concentrate. Your heart is telling you to look at her whereas your brain tells you to ignore her. They fight. You try to relax. It doesn't work. You want to get up and run away, like that would help.

There you are.
You're fighting your emotions, your memories, the pictures, everything. You know you can't stop it. It will drag you down, once again. You open the door for the old blue bastard. Your first words are "Please come in, enjoy your stay... but remember. Today is the day and tonight is the night. You have to go tomorrow morning, while I'm asleep." He nods and makes himself comfortable.